It has been a long time since I last updated on my blog. Apparently, last time I updated, I was not in a good state of mind. Being down the hole of depression is a fitful state to be in where all you can see is through the haze of black and white. No greys,…
A Decades Update
This year has been crazy. Literal crazy. A new chapter began in my love but with it brought countless happenings that I have not been able to discern from from my reality. I hVe become an individual maintaining a front for the world but from inside is a soul withering away. Withering away only to…
Cosmic Love
Turmoil. Turmoil in her heart and distress on her lips. A beautiful whisper left her mouth as she breathed on the cold window and immersed in the mysterious mistiness. Her thoughts were a jumbled mess yet she embraced the night time wonderings, the tears and the cold whisper of night breeze which caressed her like…
Grief: An Unwanted Emotion
In the perpetual reverie of nothingness, grief is that emotion which holds you tightly and squeezes you until all you can is gasp, splutter, and take your last breath before you fall in its clutches. Life is profound and human being is capable of such emotions that makes you go in awe but sometimes they…
If I give love, I remain empty handed
Love is such a profound emotion. When a person comes to feel it, they are surrounded by it. Love can be innocent yet on the opposite wild too. Love between two friends can be illustrious yet if the relationship between two friends requires work from one side is toxic in its entirety. My body is…
Close Your Eyes and Smile.
It is that time of the year when school officially ends and it is time to lay around and laze with a glass of refreshing lemonade to lift your mood. Fascinating isn't it, but reality is that for me the unending torture of examinations still looms like an upcoming threat of execution on the guillotine.…
Unspoken Challenges
This is something I have never discussed before. Dealing with an OCD patient is challenge at yet, particularly, when its your own parent struggling with the deepest, darkest recesses of their mind where imaginations and stories struggle with defining whats reality and whats myth. Observing and dealing with my mother who has to fight with…
Jealousy is an ominous feeling….
Today was a day of mixed feelings. Excitement, anger, misery,.......jealousy! I always talk about how I adore my writing and focus my person to do the best. It seems petty but it felt like a stab on my work. It was declared as pathetic and lacked elements for an excellent spell. It hurt and I…
18 is all but a figure!
On 23rd February, 2000, my mother brought me into this world. 18 years later on the same, faithful day I turn 18. People ask why are you excited? To grow old? To become legal in sense? They ask do you feel any different? In its entirety, 18 is all but a figure. It seems so…
Visualizing myself…
Every night is spent in anticipation for the upcoming future, latest daydreams to weave in the cocoon of blankets, wishes entangled in every breath exhaled. This is what describes me every night...my visual self. That was prologue. Several chapters of my life are still incomplete. Gaps and holes are found in every chapter but than…
An ode to thoughts 